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Navi Rawat

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[26 Aug 2004|06:30pm]
[ mood | drifting ]

Back, but I doubt anyone cares.

3 pewter portraits of general apathy| it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[14 Aug 2004|03:33pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I know no one really keeps up with me anymore, and I don't blame you. I haven't even been keeping track of myself.

Anyway, I'm out for a week, to just take some time off for me, away from the internet. I love you all. :-*

2 pewter portraits of general apathy| it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[04 Aug 2004|12:23pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Apparently all my deep and introspective entries are being ignored so I'll just take a pause from all that to say HOLLA. I wonder if that civvie of mine has been writing more odes to my boobs. I need a good morale booster.

Ben McKenzie WHY AREN'T YOU ONLINE. This is very distressing.

4 pewter portraits of general apathy| it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[30 Jul 2004|12:42pm]
[ mood | loved ]

It's been too long. I stopped keeping track of the days I didn't wake up to your laugh a while ago. It was worth it to hop on a plane and surprise you. The look on your face when you opened the door and found me standing outside your hotel room was more than I could have hoped for. Spending the evening recommitting each other to memory, lips and eyes and hands until the sun rose above the horizon and bathed the room in a golden light.

You're still sleeping as I write this, on your stomach, one arm outstretched over the place where I had been laying beside you moments before. Dark curls of hair in your eyes, back rising and falling with each steady breath. The sheet arranged just so over your body. If I stretch out just so, my fingers will grace over the muscles of your arm. You'll stir, and I'll abandon this to crawl back into bed with you as your mouth claims mine again.

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[16 Jul 2004|08:19pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

It has been so long since I've updated. To tell the truth I'm not sure why I haven't been. I haven't had any work and it's starting to get to me. I like to keep busy and I can't help feeling completely useless. I don't want to be known just for my work on The O.C.. I want to be in movies again, and act alongside people whom I'd formerly admired from afar. But I've been at home, drifting, finding my company in him (which, believe me, is not a bad thing at all), looking for work in the daytime and coming home to him at night before he has to leave.

I'm still debating over whether or not to follow him when he goes on tour, but the sensible part of me is seriously considering it. I'm tired of being lazy.

it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[11 Jul 2004|11:02am]
[ mood | blah ]

I need motivation again.

it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[24 Jun 2004|08:06pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Hmm. Apparently my paid account is expiring soon and since I'm not above begging like Ben McKenzie is, who wants to pay for me? ;)

I can offer stuff. But no sexual favors, sorry. I save that for him.

it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[22 Jun 2004|01:01pm]
[ mood | bored ]

It's been a while since I've updated and I thought my boyfriend was going to beat me to it, but he's been just as lazy as I have, so I suppose I have to fill you all in sooner or later. We've been hanging out practically every day, either going shopping or out for lunch or dinner or staying in and renting a movie occasionally. I was tempted to take him out to see Harry Potter because I've only seen it once, and he hasn't seen it but it's the kind of movie that everyone should see in theaters at least once.

I don't know if there's anything I can say about him that won't make him blush, so all I'm going to add is that this is the happiest I've felt, or close to it. I can't imagine anything without this right now.

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I've been listening to this CD all day. [09 Jun 2004|04:20pm]
[ mood | calm ]

There's nothing like a good peanut-butter-and-banana sandwich. I couldn't remember the last time I had one of these so I had to go and make one for myself. My banana was starting to turn bad anyway. What better way to get rid of it? (No naughty banana jokes please. :-*)

On this whole lj dating issue that someone brought up (I don't really know who it was, but yay for them), I think it's stupid. This whole idea that people have of hooking up online and then breaking up the same way. If you don't have the courage to do it in person... well that's another story. Suffice it to say that I didn't ask him to date me online, and I didn't even have to ask him. It was a mutual agreement which is always nice.

It's nice not having any confusion or doubt in my life at this point. I hope that doesn't change at all.

FYI: I am not going to update again until my boyfriend does. :-*

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[06 Jun 2004|12:45pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

It's only been a few days, but I feel like I haven't seen you in ages.

it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[02 Jun 2004|12:05pm]
[ mood | content ]

The eye can see seven million colors.

Last night, I could see all of them. Every shade of deep red melding together with orange and yellow until they gave way for the dark blue and purple and pink that follow a sunset. The vermilion of the wine and the scarlet of the strawberries, the juice sticky on fingers and mouths. The rose of the blush on your cheeks and the way your mouth reminded me of a dahlia, reddened from our kisses. Even the slight contrast between the color of our skin as you held me in your arms, cinnamon against alabaster.

Listening to that song and thinking of the way you whispered to me.

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[01 Jun 2004|03:28pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to let go
I'm scared 'cause my heart has been hurt so

it sucks me in when you're aloof

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[31 May 2004|03:32pm]
[ mood | calm ]

There are 100 people that have friended me. Which is not as impressive as Ben's 100 or 103 entries or whatever he's celebrating, but it makes me happy, so there. :-* Apparently Avril's drummer has deemed me appropriate reading material. I'm not too sure about that. I just write about what I know. First step in good journal-keeping.

I think I'm going to go see The Day After Tomorrow, because after finding how that Jake Gyllenhaal AND Dennis Quaid AND Sela Ward are in this film, who would be able to resist it? :-* I don't want to go alone, though, so I'm probably going to end up roaming the streets of LA looking for a date. I can promise good company and I'll even pay for you. We can get silly and buy as much candy as we want and get sick on it.

I've been hearing good things about Modest Mouse. Why haven't we seen any of them around here? I think they're just lazy living off the success of their album. I'd be, too, if I could make music like they do. (Then again, I have to rely on my beauty and winning personality to make my way in the business. ;) Just kidding.)

Finished Franny and Zooey and I'm reading The Lovely Bones again. This book is breathtaking and heartbreaking and completely beautiful. I've already cried about four times and I'm not even halfway through. I love the fact that I can come back to something and it has the same effect on my every time.

I need new icons.

edit: Now it's 102 never mind. :-[
edit 2: And now it's 103. Yay. I feel the love.

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[28 May 2004|03:43pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I suppose I have to end my writing strike now. I've never been really good at keeping my thoughts confined for a long time. (I'm really disappointed in Josh, nice as his entry was. ;) He's got to update for himself, because I won't be helping next time.)

I was talking to Ben earlier, just as the sky opened up. I went out into the rain. The drops fell around me, dancing around my feet, braided themselves in my hair, forming a glistening crown. The drops on my skin melded together and felt like light silk against my skin.

Reading Franny and Zooey for no real reason. I think I'd like to head to a café late at night with a pack of cigarettes and order a chicken sandwich and smoke so much that I grow dizzy from the fumes.

I should go clean up.

When it rains, it rains so slowly in the city where I'm from.

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my very own writing strike [24 May 2004|08:40pm]
[ mood | >:O! ]

i will not update until groban does </3

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running down, running down. [24 May 2004|12:12am]
[ mood | not sleepy meh ]

I can't sleep. Not very well, anyway. I've checked my friends page about 2653157810 times and no one is updating except for the cryptic page, and I don't even know what to say to those entries half of the time. I need to go out, spend the evening on my roof and watch the sun peek over the hills until everything is lit in that warm orange glow. It's almost as nice as a sunset, but you really can't compare the two. You can't compare being alone to spending a moment with another.

I'll sign online for an hour or so, if anyone wants to tell me something.

Tossing and turning in tangled sheets sweat on my skin and trying not to think of you.

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I am the Chino. [22 May 2004|05:33pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Dude. I'm going to repeat what I said about two entries back. Everyone is getting married! Fo' shizzle. First Majandra/Jon, then Rachel/Adam, now Julia/Milo. Whatever happened to Navi/someonereallycutewhocompletesmeDREAMYSIGH? In all seriousness, I'm not going to seek someone out. Maybe I'll be really lucky and it'll just drop into my lap. Or I could be the next Bachelorette. That would be the shiznit.

It's been a couple of days, and I'm still giddy. I'm not really sure I can explain why, and I don't think I even want to. Not in public, anyway. Not today. A day when I feel like baring my soul to all you sexy people. :-*

Jessica Claire Biel, we have still not met up yet, and if you are in the area, I want to see yo' ass on my doorstep ASAP. P.S. I checked your profile to make sure I had your middle name right and I did. I am going to do a victory dance. Excuse me.

...

That was fun.

It looks like rain.

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'cause every day since then you have been gone. [20 May 2004|07:31pm]
Last night, I went for a walk with my camera and took a few pictures. The sunset against the Hollywood letters. A young woman brushing a strand of blond hair behind her ear, forever captured in that lingering pose, eyes hidden behind sunglasses covering half her face. A discarded map lying against the pavement, pages stirring in the hot winds. It's almost oleander season, the season of the blood-red sun. I could smell the scent of cigarettes and spices on the air, a poisonous yet intoxicating mix that lingered on my clothes long after I had left.

Sheets caressing my bare skin as my head meets the pillow. The soothing sound of Bach on a record player on the balcony of the apartment across from mine. He always plays Bach on Thursdays. Tomorrow I'll drift off listening to Schytte, and Mozart the evening after. It's a bittersweet melody, the love I have for the music, and the even stronger desire to fall asleep to your voice instead.
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[16 May 2004|06:04pm]
[ mood | bored ]

everyone is getting married but me >:O!

anyone wanna get hitched i promise i'd be a good wife

edit: answers omg i love you guys!Collapse )

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[10 May 2004|07:25pm]
[ mood | happy ]

a_samaire is back omg now i can fangirl properly and i agree with jessica alba she is one of the hottest people EVER

my first fangirl moment was when i had a chance to watch charlizetheron on inside the actors' studio last night and i just have to say that she is absolutely radiant and gorgeous and i have so much more respect for her as an actress and as a person now after learning what she's had to deal with and all the shit she's been dealt. you are one of my heroes :-*

josh schwartz hacked my journal and no one commented because it was not really me so there you do not make a good navi hahaha i laugh

i think i'm going to go out tonight and treat myself to a good night of clubbing yay me

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